Work in Progress

Today was a trainwreck. period. I was all over the place, yet I remained in the same spot ....does that make sense ? I realize my worst day is nothing compared to another's worst day, and at the end of the day , I had a house to come home to, a family that loves me, amazing friends to support me, and my God whose love is unfailing. But nonetheless, I am thankful the day is done. And I am thankful that the work within me is never done. I am in constant flux...ever-changing , ever-bending, ever-moving. I am happy to be that way ( I haven't always felt that way, but once again, God is showing me areas of improvement) . Yes, predictable is nice, comforting even. But growth doesn't happen in my comfort zone. It happens in the unpleasant,disturbing,challenging,trying, awkward moments of my life. At the end of the day, it comes down to this : If I am choosing the path of my Savior, I need to be ready, have a teachable spirit, and be willing to go where He leads me. He is the only one who knows what that path is, I just pray for the eyes to see His nudgings. God is awesome like that .....always loving, faithful, true to His word, forgiving, supporting, guiding me. So, I will keep trusting, keep serving , patiently wait, and keep my eyes on His glorious and beautiful face. " Father God, mold me into the woman you would have me to be. Shape me and pour Your Love, Life, and Peace into me. Lead me to Your cross, refine me, and lead me to Your heart. ~ Amen <3

Can you imaginge what it would have been like to walk hand in hand in the Garden with the Creator of the universe .... the One who breathed life into your very existence ?
That's the way it was meant to be. A relationship so close that we couldn't fathom His great LOVE for us.... it would be undeniable. We couldn't look away from his beautiful face. That is the realtionship I want with my God.
Close. Intimate. Breath taking. Awesome. Unity. Filling my needs. Praising His Glory. Tears. Laughter. Sacrifice.
I want this....I crave this.
What would we do to have this? It is free to us, all we need to do is accept it. He is waiting with arms open wide...ready to hold you in His arms. To hold your hand. To breathe life into you.
What do I need to do to make this relationship go the distance ?

Passion

We say we are passionate about many things ....but TRUE passion is something you would die for. The one thing you have to do in this life...need to do. I enjoy many things, and at one point in my life called them "passions" , but how many of those things would I die for ? To be honest,not many.
What would you give your life for ? What do you devote your time to ?
I love music, I love helping people, I love my pupcake, Cupid, I love my family, I love making a difference in the lives of others. I enjoy my work ( most of the time :D ).
But, the one thing I am most passionate about, something I would die for...something I have already died for, is my Jesus. I chose to die to myself, and continually choose to die to self , so that I decrease and my Lord increases. To know Him, to love Him, to share Him with others....that is what I am passionate about. He gave His life for me so that I may LIVE .... how many people do you know would do that for you ?

Give me one pure and Holy passion,

give me one magnificent obsession,

give me glorious ambition for my life,

To KNOW and FOLLOW hard after You

to know and follow hard after You,

to grow as Your disciple in Your TRUTH,

this world is empty,pale, and poor,

compared to knowing You my Lord,

LEAD me on and I will follow after You,

Jesus, lead me on and I follow after You

Uhmmmm ....

Do you ever find yourself just sitting there...thinking...about absolutely nothing, and then it hits you ....BAM , right between the eyes ??? That there is something you should be doing, places you need to be, people you need to be impacting ???

I try too much. I want to please everybody, all of the time. I can't. I shouldn't. That's not my job, it's God's.

All I am suppose to do is soak in His radiant Light and Love, refresh, get to know the heart of my Creator , and as a by-product of that, people will be blessed.

A friend of mine, and the youth pastor at my church gave a message a few weeks back to our youth kids ( Eleveate Student Ministries ). He said we need to be a sponge... a well saturated sponge. a sponge that has a constant flow of water on it and a sponge that, when sqeezed, has water coming out of it. Does this make sense to you ? A dry sponge is not serving its purpose. A wet sponge that doesn't have a constant flow of water on it will eventaully dry out when the " big squeeze" comes on. In this life, we need to be immersed in God's word, soaking in all he has for us so that when the pressures come ...and they will come, my friend .... we don't run dry and dry out. My goal: to becme a well saturated sponge :) Are you up for the challenge ....

We all get busy, crazy with obligations and committments, but let's make a pact : that we will give the Lover of our souls the best of us everyday,every moment, and commit to knowing our Father's heart more than we do now. what do we have to lose ? Moreover, look at all we have to gain <3